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To hold grudge or not

Are you holding a grudge? About?

Yes I guess I do even that don’t think about it each day. I feel my bullies from my first 6 years of school were not just bad but did it on purpose. My entire class was bullying me more or less, fx if someone touched me they would try to get it off by touching each other before touching me again making it all start over. I was often hurt and the worst was the guy who almost broke my neck which I luckily don’t remember anymore. And guess I could go on and on about what they did but guess I will leave this saying the actions still affects me to this day so yeah I would not forgive them.

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My tears of joy

What brings a tear of joy to your eye?

I feel tears of joy when people are helping others without expecting anything in return other than a smile on the face of the people they help. I want to help so much as well and will continue to do the best I can.

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My name came from…

Where did your name come from?

I am not sure why my parents decided to call me Jesper as so far I know, no people in my family is name like that, but maybe that is the answer, they were looking for a name which was not used a lot. As for Jesper itself it comes from Jasper which is some kind of gemstone while it is also one of the wise men’s name. A bit more recent we have the Danish football player Jesper Olsen which played for the wrong team Manchester United, I am Manchester City fan, and scored a own goal so the joke in Denmark is that Jesper is a bad pass to your goalkeeper hahahaha

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Peace and Asperger’s

What brings you peace?

I feel that this was a good question to answer even as always I can only answer for myself but the thing that brings me peace is meditation and yes I know people will say their mind is too busy for that but give your mind 5mins at a time to not focus on something specific but letting your mind flow is good and brings me peace. I do that 5 times a day for 5mins each and I would never say I am the best since you are supposed to empty your mind which I am not but the busy in my head enjoys the freedom that I gives it since I feel that often we are focusing too much on what is happening right now. I know it is good to focus on what is happening but I also enjoy the peace my mind gets from being allowed to think anything. Guess that is all I want to say today except for give meditation a chance even you may not do it like the expects wants you to do it

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I wish to know more about life’s meaning

What are you curious about?

Like I almost just answered in my title, I want to know the meaning of life since at the moment I find it difficult for me to understand what I want in life. I mean I am doing great with work, I am having fun with boulders, walks and what else, I have good friends, I am a bit uncertain about getting a lover or not but I feel like an 8 in terms of happiness, I just sometimes feel like an outsider since I don’t understand the meaning of life and I don’t know what I want from it since I don’t understand what questions I need to have. Sorry guess I am just rambling but all the people who read this, thanks and will go back to my series ‘for all mankind’

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Life in an alternate universe

Daily writing prompt
Describe your life in an alternate universe.

Well I recently started to wonder how life would be if I was ‘normal’ instead of having Asperger’s and when I noticed this question I felt like I had to write something here after so many days with no post because life had been too much for this and my novel Beyond love existence so I am sorry I disappeared and I will try to be here more once again. So to answer the question on life then I feel like my life in an alternate universe could mean 2 different lives. 1. where I am normal and 2. where some physical injury had ruined my life. I am not pointing fingers at anyone, just feel that there are 3 types of lives, 1. normal ones, 2. physical injury preventing 100% like a broken back or a lost leg or 3. psychically like my Asperger’s or Bipolar.

To answer the main question then I think that my life in alternate universe would mean I had lost a leg at childbirth meaning I would still have problems being perfectly normal so I do not think I would still get bullied and such but because I didn’t have Asperger’s I would maybe have better luck understand people around me and that way not hurt people around me, which I feel I do a bit often. Hopefully I would also make me stronger to fight for things and maybe help people better. If I was not as good with computers as now then maybe I would be better at being a kindergarten teacher even it might be a bit weird to an one legged teacher but at least the kids would have lots to ask about. Otherwise since I would no longer be having motion sickness I could maybe be a sailor or roller coaster care taker since water is one of my favorite things or at least I used to be a sea turtle in my baby years. I also love eating fish now so maybe my food would be more plant based since I do not mind vegan food just not always the best to eat a good salad. I wonder if I would had more dates and such in the alternate universe since I am happy for what I have experienced in this life but maybe more things could have happened.

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Retirement

How do you want to retire?

Well my work life is a bit special since because of my Asperger’s I am hired in something the Danish government calls FLEX job meaning different things like fx I work less than normal people but still get paid the same since my workplace gets the some of the money from the government since it is better for me and the government that I work instead of being unemployed. One of the ‘bad’ things is that once I reach the retirement age of people here, at the moment 70 years old, I will not get my special help anymore and I will work on normal terms if I want to do more. This means workplaces will often fire people when they reach that age. This makes me think that I will just leave the workforce when that happens unless my job offers some good way of me to continue and that I like the place. If it is the place I am now, then I will buy a big cake for the company and celebrate my retirement with them and my family, once the celebration is over then unless I am sick or something that prevents me from being at full speed I will go on a holiday to some nice country.

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My tagline

If humans had taglines, what would yours be?

“The climbing movie watching guy with Asperger’s” is what I feel my tagline would be since I feel my mix of climbing and being outdoors while also going crazy with movies makes me a fun mix plus as you know I have Asperger’s which is why I am adding that as well… the only problem I have is that I am not sure if that is a tagline or not since before today I had never heard the term before, but I hope I got it

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Overcoming fear

What fears have you overcome and how?

I know the question is how to come your fears but I feel that the biggest fears I have in life is so big that I don’t even have the strength to overcome speaking up about them since I don’t know how to get started at them in the first place. I am not living in fear daily as it does not ruin my life and I don’t hate myself for it either but I feel maybe some of my days could be better if I was able to fix it. I am feel I am getting more and more brave to conquer them every day so guess I just need to take small steps but I wonder if my steps are too small and that maybe too few days left for it to happen. So guess I can answer half of this question by saying that you need to do small steps to slowly get the upper hand and hopefully you can beat it someday.